high expectation let down

nobody's talking..thinking and expecting to spend my last new year at college alone at room lying and staring at walls..what an irony :-|

stricture...change!!

I don't really understand the  effort of people, giving a thought to the things about saying or not when eventually it has to somehow come through their mouths. Its like inability to express, without being pried and annoying others. It really is frustrating. Such people are also conversant with a gifted power of inquiring and timing debate attacks and an additional tangential touch wen found contravened or whatever. And I don't know I may be so concerned or maybe arrogant with inability to outlook such palpable oopsie. 


Well, Its such a time when you always would try to do something and find yourself stuck in a thought you may or would be avoiding. Yesterday I was out to some of the places I have never been, HRC in some mall and etc. and undoubtedly awesome crowd and wonderful time it was, but I always found myself lost in something which I don't want to think about inspite of my love towards it. But overall, nice outing it was. 


And I must say, MUST GO to HRC. ITS ROCKING!! :)

crisis of life

Do you find yourself pulling away from others, especially if you've experienced a deep disappointment? Maybe the most difficult thing we can do is to be with people when we don't feel like being around anybody.


Thank those who bring out the worst in you! For they help you see what you wouldn't otherwise see on your own!

Dedicated :)

Each day i say to myself i m fine and get myself involved in some work but do you really think it works with everyone? i would definitely say no. i have so many things which i need to work upon only because i will go away soon. may be..i can feel that ambivalence thing around me with number of pi-pi <dun ask me whats dis!!> sounds coming, some note attached..phuf :-/

i want to be on stage right now doing something.. anything. i know this is weird but that's what i am dealing in with these days...you see weird thoughts.
well, these gonna be my last few days at home before going to Mysore. What i realized recently is, to all my mind queries is a question again, why dont i stay and backout from infosys? and that remains unanswered.

Two of my best friend's birthdays, my parents marriage anniversary- dejects me. Not the occasions are, but my not being on these occasions, is the reason. :(

oh u look beautiful Rupal :D

aahaan...now thats my hand putting cake on your face rupal.. ha ha.. and i would love to repeat such an act again ;) and see u had chance to celebrate it on our very own destroyed audi :) lucky you...







I have been shouting for the continued summer effect even at such time and see how Gods pouring the cold all over to me. I wish it happens with every wish i ask for. :D I m writing after so many days and my shortage of words seconds that i suppose.

I m watching FRIENDS nowadays and its like amazing show :) n i love the way Feebee acts..hehe :)


            I'l be there for you when the rain starts to pour
            I'l be there for you like I've been there before
            I'l be there for you because you are there for me too.

:) :)

nadir..!!

Why its always i suffer from bad times after few days of happiness. well, now i feel like isolated, not worth anyone's friend anymore.. :-/

A mixture...

Yesterday was pretty hard for me, 102 body temp, everytng we did transpired to b against my wish…Bt it was okay, I was out of house, wid 2 of my frends…wanted to njoi more bt cudnt find  a proper place to hangout…agra sucks sumtyms  K 

We gt late, n were realy expecting our railways to perform as dy r….my frnd had to catch a train at 10 2day n we gt a bit late in leaving home…bt hapless he was…jst 2 min short of train. The train, which never hd been on tym, was.. K bt okay there was no point worrying over such trifle. Nxt train n he left.

I m bak on my bed staring at my ceiling..ears echoing in complete silence…cant stand dis trite life.It was never like dis before. no contacts wid friends, no toks wid my parents, nuthng...i mean, it was never less den hell dis time. 

i missed my frens a lot, i wanted them like anything bt it seemed every1 refused to give their little tym and i was taken aback. One thing i found out about myself, m crazy about my frends. Its just that i hv gt into the typical definition of friends. i really think i wasnt wrong of thinking lke dat bt really m disappointed by the way sum of my frends reacted. its possible dey gt sum work bt a little tym wont harm them. Its been a lesson to me, though it doesnt seem complicated bt it is. hope to make it alright.

All is knw is i hate mean and busy people :|

    

boring busy summer days

Oh i lost it! Thursdays ARE better den Tuesdays :D the food was delicious and i wish my friend was here.
anyways, the sem is ending with bad note carrying along with it. n i m scared ;) but that is actually funny..end has been no different for me ever. Still i would say its been bit busy, GRE preparation, internship 'jugaad', projects and nw this elective thing which jst got over. that was a pensive time for all of us, conselling ppl, thinkng deeply.
bt nw we finally got rid of it.

Well, i m in my messy room and i m lost thinking wat to do. i got a class tomorrow n guess wat, its 9 morn to 5.30 even. :O n thats what making me sleepy nw :'( m tired too, played for around 4 hours continuously.
I m waiting for roshogullas and new shoes :D u guys wait for my next post :)
c ya..hv a good day.. 

nothing to say...

I suffer from the need to say sumthing deep and profound.
sumthing perhaps would never change-- that i love surprises and my cellphone flashing calls or messages received, hate who comment a lot and involve in oblique talks and most importantly people around.
some people ask me to change, some give their advises bt sumtimes it feels so down to ignore urself n keeping ppl on ur trust. so nw i prefer to be obdurate on my opinions..

actually random.. :P

I feel stupid to be so thotful sumtimes.. ah. its actually true, wen u r blank, thousands of thoughts visit ur mind; no matter its attached to you or not, you get lost in dem.
i have deeply observed one thing dat.. isnt it useless to do dat?!  bcoz..at the end we end up in the end, which we cnt change. :P i mean its like, at the end its all holllow, n we end up at people caviling.
    it happens, infact it happened to me large number of times. bt den another virus creeps in dat niggles me to be a nihilist ;)  a voice-- y get affected coz of people reaction, dun b a callow guy !!

hehe...again lets get out of it..bcoz i knw, i deal wid dem accche se, bt sumtimes i make mistakes and its okay :)
neways, 'my roomie' cum good frend ensconsed and checking songs songs n songs. a big fan of songs, no qualms. Perhaps, i miss his unusual habit of moving his hands up&down wenever heaphones were put on, bt unfortunately, nt nw out of annoyance i guess :P...bt it seemd sweeet himanshu :)
 wel nw, its time for sum brk, feelin sleepy :D luv u sleep... 

dun knw..bt dis is weird!!!

hii..
dis is actually weird..n i m blank. the days are passing by normally, exercising everything i do everyday, bunking classes, playing, sleeping a lot bt everything is nt fine and evrytime i face ppl, dere is sumthing which lets me down and i feel awkward. isnt dat strange !!
its jst a flick of time n soon it ll get over, i m sure n evrything would be perfectly fine and its actually a bad feeling i m getting dat i m about to lose something precious seemd to me. Aah!! tough time..

well, lets get over dis spoilt thought..i m still awake arnd dese colored walls in my messy room and hoping desperately a plate of bread n butter in front of me, ooooh..i m mouthwatering ;)

enrique rocks !! headphns plugged in...n nw sleep calling me..gunnyt :)